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11 February 2010 @ 02:40 am
[fic] his everything  
His Everything
past!siwon/eunhyuk, donghae/eunhyuk. 960 words. nc-17. romance, angst
Sometimes Hyukjae thinks if it was all for the better.

—”Siwonnie...” he muttered in what he hoped sounds husky. He leaned forward and started nuzzling the other’s neck. Hearing the other man chuckled throatily, he felt a fluttery feeling straight in his stomach.

“Yeah, Hyukjae?” asked Siwon, amusement thick in his voice.—

“H-Hae...” Hyukjae moaned loudly as he felt Donghae suckling his neck roughly, leaving red marks he knew he would need to hide later. Ah, the joy of wearing turtlenecks in summer, he winced.

“Yeah?” he heard Donghae slurred lazily, too busy marking his milky white skin with red hickeys, proof of fresh sex session. Hyukjae let out another wanton moan as Donghae licked his taut nipple, teeth scraping the sensitive skin lightly. He wounded his hands on the other’s soft curls and tugged it softly, encouraging for more.

“Fuck me now” he murmured, bringing his lips on Donghae’s, blushing furiously.

Donghae laughed against their kiss and breathed, “I was just getting to that baby”.

Hyukjae arched his back when Donghae pushed himself inside of him, filling him wholly. He groaned in bliss loving every sensations it gave to his frail and sensitive body, whispering Donghae’s name over and over again.

— “Hyuk” Siwon whispered to him in between their sweet kisses in which Hyukjae moaned in response.

“I-i want you, Hyuk” murmured the lean man as his hands started tumbling Hyukjae’s shirt buttons unsurely, hesitating. Hyukjae smiled, after numerously rejecting the offer, he was finally ready to nod his head eagerly. Hyukjae raised both of his hands to his own buttons and helped Siwon undoing them all while Siwon stared at him in surprise, joy and lusted look.

“Me too” he said before SIwon covered his lips with his own.—

Hyukjae felt Donghae scraped his prostrate as he pounded inside him, rough and eager. Feeling himself building up from the ecstasy, Hyukjae lowered his hand down to his throbbing member which was leaking with precum right now.

Donghae smiled understandingly at him and pounded faster and harder, wanting to release at the same time as the man beneath him. At that Hyukjae hooked his kegs tighter around Donghae’s waist and moaned wantonly.

“Hae!” he panted as he spread his legs wider, allowing the other man to thrust deeper inside him. Donghae groaned.

— He felt soft trembling hand caressing his wet cheek, giving a vain try to wipe his still flowing tears away.

Hyukjae hiccuped and whispered desperately, “No, Siwon, you must hang in there!”

Siwon smiled sadly and croaked in between his heavy breaths, “I’m so sorry Hyukjae... I... don’t think... i can...”

“God don’t talk now Siwon, just hang in there! Donghae’s called the ambulance, he said they are coming any minute now!” cried Hyukjae loudly. Siwon shook his head weakly and Hyukjae cried, lowering his head listlessly. “Please.... Please don’t leave me. You said you love me! Don’t leave me alone, Siwon...” he begged softly, grasping Siwon’s bloodied hand tightly, bringing it to his chest.

“I’m sorry and I love you Hyuk” Siwon murmured, barely audible. He then gazed at Donghae, who was also started crying, in silence and mouthed, unheard to Hyukjae but understood perfectly by Donghae, take good care of him...

Donghae noded firmly and sobbed because Siwon had finally breathed his very last one with Hyukjae weeping on his wounded chest, crying his heart out. —

Reaching his orgasm, Hyukjae released at the same time as Donghae did, spilling his cum on his and the younger man’s defined abs while Donghae had his inside of him, filling Hyukjae fully with his liquid.

Taking out his spent member slowly out Hyukjae’s dripping entrance, Donghae hovered above him.

“You miss him” he breathed, sadness thick in his voice, as he wiped the tears Hyukjae didn’t even know were there with his thumbs softly. Only then Hyukjae realized that he was crying, real bad.

Unable to lie, “Yeah” he replied, wiping them with the back of his hand quickly. He had determined to not cry in front of the other and broke his heart... Again... And yeah, as always he fails at it.

“I’m so sorry baby” murmured Donghae, before kissing him, sweet and loving, just like the way Hyukjae likes it.

— “Can you say it again?” he asked cheerfully, tugging at Siwon’s perfectly muscled arm.

Siwon raised his eyebrow, amused, “Say what?”

“Say that you love me.”

Smiling wide, the younger man said, “I love you Hyukjae” making the said man blushed and grinned wider.

“I...” —

“Do you still love him?” Donghae asked for the millionth time.

Thinking of himself who couldn’t even bear the memories of him saying ‘i love you’ to Siwon, Hyukjae said,

“He was my everything. I loved him.”

Hyukjae knew he won’t be able to forget about the other man, the happy and sad moments they went through together and actually he didn’t want to. Hyukjae has Donghae now and he was immensely grateful that Donghae understands him and even want him to cherish the memories he had of him and Siwon together.

Hyukjae loves Donghae so much that sometimes he thinks if it was all for the better, that the whole thing was fated.He knew that Siwon still holds an irreplaceable place in his fickle heart, a place where even Donghae can’t replace with, just like Siwon can’t replace Donghae.

Donghae leaned in closer and claimed his bruised lips, embracing Hyukjae tightly and protectively. Smiling lightly, he breathed against Hyukjae’s plump lips, “You used past tense. What about now?”

Hyukjae sighed, his little lover knows the answer damn well but just have the need to ask.

“Now, you are my everything. I love you Hae”

author's note: was feeling depressed and shuffling through the 100 challenge list. somehow the word 'crackle' actually made me think of this though i didnt even know what did that mean then - -"
Hunny: KangHyukclumzypie on February 10th, 2010 07:18 pm (UTC)
T____T I kinda feel like crying now.
but~ Hyukie can be SO glad he has Hae q_q

and I ♥ it! *saves for reading again* Q.Q
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 01:32 pm (UTC)
aww dont cry ><
yes of course he has hae lol <33
thank you! glad you like this :DD
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just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 01:35 pm (UTC)
thank you :)
yeahh, my bias is too apparent lol
fara_etonfara_eton on February 10th, 2010 07:31 pm (UTC)
never thought of sihyuk b4 but dis is awesome..
i'm glad dat siwon is only hyukkie past...
hyukkie,,u got hae..
and dats all matter..
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 01:38 pm (UTC)
yes,, i love eunhae too much to actually write a sihyuk *fails*
lol, thank you:)
teukteuk_83teukteuk_83 on February 10th, 2010 07:43 pm (UTC)
Hahahahah another smut <3 YAYYYY
I was a bit confused at why SIWON was there so i was like "what link did i click in?"
now i get it xD
it was REALLY sweet~
teukteuk_83teukteuk_83 on February 10th, 2010 07:43 pm (UTC)
oooh i just realized~ my pic (icon) has EunShiHae O.O
ooooh co in ki dink!!
(no subject) - fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 01:41 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 01:40 pm (UTC) (Expand)
teddy_24teddy_24 on February 10th, 2010 07:47 pm (UTC)
That was just WoW! Really liked it! :)
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 01:48 pm (UTC)
thank you so much! xD
mister fish, did you die?tees2mai on February 10th, 2010 07:56 pm (UTC)
late spot
mister fish, did you die?tees2mai on February 10th, 2010 09:58 pm (UTC)
i glad hyukkie had haeface

dnt be depressed clarissa <3
(no subject) - fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 01:50 pm (UTC) (Expand)
nahna_jin_br on February 10th, 2010 09:24 pm (UTC)
That was really beautiful <3
Hyuk should be happy, having someone understanding like Donghae.
Thank you for sharing (:
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 02:34 pm (UTC)
aww thank you and dont worry he is happy lol
kisekiotomekisekiotome on February 10th, 2010 10:56 pm (UTC)
This is beautiful..
Though Hyuk lost Siwon good thing that Donghae's still there for him and Hyuk found another love ^^
yes, there will always be a special one in our hearts that even new love cannot replace.. good thing Hae's understanding^^
thank you for this~
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 02:40 pm (UTC)
of course Hae understands,, being the perfect boyfriend he is lol<333
thank you so much dear <3
Jessica ★13fireflies on February 10th, 2010 11:14 pm (UTC)
i love how you managed to mix angst and smut together.
If it wasn't for the Eunhae sex, i'd be bawling my eyes out over Sihyuk.

“Now, you are my everything. I love you Hae”
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 02:43 pm (UTC)
awww,, glad i put the eunhae then xDD
you know this was supposed to be full sihyuk, but i guess my bias is just too strong lol

thank you<3~
x3sujudbskx33x3sujudbskx33 on February 11th, 2010 02:05 am (UTC)
That was so sadd. I held my tears back. So sweet.
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 02:44 pm (UTC)
awww:D *hugs*
thank you for reading <3
Bex!headless_bex on February 11th, 2010 04:49 am (UTC)
Ohhh my heart.
I was SO SAD, then the ending was so beautifully perfect.
AHH. <3333333
I love you~
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 02:46 pm (UTC)
*hugs* xD
thank you so much!!
so happy you think so
i love you too~ <333
Kim Marchettakimmarchetta on February 11th, 2010 05:43 am (UTC)
Kim Marchettakimmarchetta on February 11th, 2010 07:54 am (UTC)
Siwon~ Gah, I wonder what happened to him D:
/thisisthepresentthatyougivetosiwon. himbeingdead/ xD
But this is really nice <3
Even though it was kinda short. but - .___.
I'm happy 8D

(no subject) - fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 02:48 pm (UTC) (Expand)
foreversjrulesforeversjrules on February 11th, 2010 07:08 am (UTC)
i am glad that siwon died :$...well, only in this fic. i like eunsihae but i love haehyuk more!

and i love how hae being a true lover that really loves hyuk even if he still misses siwon.. :))

i love this! ^^
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 02:51 pm (UTC)
lol i feel bad for posting this on his bday XD
thank you so much!!!
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just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 02:52 pm (UTC)
thank you! :)
h2keyh2key on February 11th, 2010 08:28 am (UTC)
:< This is the first time I read ur fic and I think... well, I like it! :)

HAe's so naughty, he should know that HYukie loves him soooooo much right now. xD~~~
No need to ask 'millionth time' :>

N I feel a bit weird cuz I think that it's so lucky Siwon left Hyuk. (sr, Wonnie oppa)

anyway, I'm still new to LJ and.. can we be friends? *Sr for my Eng* :
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 02:57 pm (UTC)
awww thank you! glad you like my fic^^~
lol,, i guess he just wanted to hear hyuk says 'i love you' xDD
dont be xD but i know i feel bad for posting this on his bday~
sure^^ *added* -nice to meet you!-
you eng is fine 8D
hee_younghee_young on February 11th, 2010 09:13 am (UTC)
This was kinda sad... T__T Held my tears back~
Okay, this was great but short. Though, Hyuk lost Siwon but... Hae is there for him~
Smut and angst together... awesome. X''D ♥
Thank you for this~ ♥♥♥
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 03:01 pm (UTC)
aww *hugs*
lol xD
buahahahah idky evrything i come up lately has smut in it *is corrupted*
thank you for reading bb<33
(no subject) - hee_young on February 11th, 2010 06:32 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Kaylapinksharpii on February 11th, 2010 01:47 pm (UTC)
aww. This was too cute!!
Sihyuk (:
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 03:04 pm (UTC)
yay thank you <3
yes sihyuk xD
Freak in an awesome way!!!!!: Eunhyuk//Fly!!!jelliepish on February 11th, 2010 02:34 pm (UTC)
It's sad and heartbreaking for SiHyuk but I feel warm and fuzzy for HaeHyuk.

Donghae is so understanding to Eunhyuk and I'm glad he has Hae by his side.

Loving this ^___^ Love the last line too <3
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 11th, 2010 03:05 pm (UTC)
awww :DD
yes,, of course,, i dont have the heart to make hyuk heartbroken without hae there beside him lol<3
rawrrgaorawrrgao on February 11th, 2010 10:56 pm (UTC)
this was.. beautfiul
gosh i'm at a loss of words here

i love your writing btw ♥ :)
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 12th, 2010 07:24 am (UTC)
thank you! :)

purple_garden: haehyuk *touch you*purple_garden on February 12th, 2010 04:55 pm (UTC)
Though Wonnie left him Hae-chan has always been beside him, take care and love him for the rest of his life. The guy in the other world must have felt happy when they're together, get over the great pain and live happily. Memories would be in their mind forever but life continues too.
This is so beautiful. Hae-chan wiped Hyukjae's tears, kiss & hug him *melt*
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 13th, 2010 07:12 pm (UTC)
yes,, siwon must be real happy to see eunhae happening xDD (i would i were him) lol
awww thank you so much! :)
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just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 13th, 2010 07:13 pm (UTC)
oh thank you! xD
lol i'll leave that to your imagination^^~
♥karurynn♥: ♥karurynn_eunhae on February 13th, 2010 06:43 pm (UTC)
uuh.. just forget the past.. It's HAE,, HYUK!! HAE!! LOL ❤❤
“Now, you are my everything. I love you Hae”
yes.. that's sounds good.. ❤ LOL

nakal yaa bikin smut lagiiiiiii LOLLOL ❤❤
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 13th, 2010 07:15 pm (UTC)
dsr xD

lately, everything i made has smut in it lol xD
happy v-day bbb^^~
happytgt on February 15th, 2010 12:30 pm (UTC)
sorry i'm so late bb!

THIS WAS SALDNWADHASK GOOD. Heartbreaking because you killed siwon and destroyed sihyuk -wags finger at you-
but I liked the way you wrote it, PORNZXZX! it was really good, i was like tearing because you killed siwon ;___;
just gotta ♥fishydotlove on February 15th, 2010 03:06 pm (UTC)
nawwww,, its ttly ok bb^^

LOLOLLOL,, i had a sudden thought of you when i posted this xDDD
but at least i didnt make siwon cheats on him? 8D
*pats and hugs*
i'll make it up to you someday^^~ need to write sihyuk anyway,, they are on the 100 suju list xD
luv_silverfishluv_silverfish on March 6th, 2011 09:02 am (UTC)
Hmm... I know u wrote this eons ago but i just saw it not too long ago...
Anw b4 i read the last para, i thought hyuk might not have accepted hae yet...
But it turned out to be a happy ending for them...XD
But aww... Poor siwonnie died...
einjhel79: eunhaeeinjhel79 on April 7th, 2011 06:11 pm (UTC)
aaawwww..Siwon is past, DongHae is present & future.. I LOVE!